Healings of depression
심각한 우울증과 외상후 스트레스 장애(PTSD)로부터 치유
R. Z. (43세), 멜번 (호주)
저는 이미 어렸을 부터 --> 어렸을 때부터 우울증이 있었습니다. 아버지가 종종 제게 폭력을 행사했습니다. 저는 항상 아주 조용히 지냈고 늘 불안했기 때문에 잠을 잘 수도 없었습니다. 제가 9살이었을 때, 아버지는 저를 성폭행했습니다. 우리 가족은 그것에 대해 알고 있었지만, 그에 대한 어떤 조치도 취하지 않았습니다. 16살이 되었을 때, 저는 수면제를 과다복용하고 자살 시도를 했으나 실패로 끝났습니다. 학교 공부도 모든 과목이 낙제 점수였습니다. 따라서 저는 자신을 더욱더 증오하게 되었습니다. 그리고 제가 아무짝에도 쓸모없다고 믿었습니다. 18살이 되어, 저는 집을 떠났습니다. 22살부터 시작해서 저는 4년 이상 정신과 치료를 받았습니다. 하지만 부작용 때문에 약은 먹지 않았습니다. 제 결혼은 3년 후에 끝나버렸고, 저를 치료하던 정신과 의사는 저를 위해 더 할 수 있는 게 없다고 했습니다. 저는 심리학자, 정신과 의사, 외과 의사, 병원 및 영성 치유가, 심리 치료사들 많은 다양한 치유 전문가들로부터 치료를 받았습니다. 이 치료 여정을 거치는 동안, 육체적 소모와 함께 어린 시절의 모든 기억이 다시 떠올랐습니다. 저는 이 기억들로부터 다시 숨고 싶었고 심장마비에 걸린 것처럼 극심한 공황발작을 겪어야 했습니다. 그리고 나면 저는 몇 시간 동안 의식을 잃어버리곤 했습니다. 저는 문을 잠그고 울다가 잠이 들곤 했습니다. 이런 삶은 수년 동안 계속되었습니다. 우울증, 불안장애 그리고 공황 발작 증세는 점점 더 심각해져만 갔고, 급기야는 2003년에 정신 병원에 입원했습니다. 몇 가지 검사를 거친 후, 저는 시프라밀, 나중에 아반자로 바뀐 밀타제팜과 같은 약을 처방받았고, 이 약들은 도움이 되었습니다. 약을 먹으면서 저는 이제 모든 게 괜찮아졌다고 생각했지만, 여전히 제 영혼 안에서는 무언가가 큰소리로 울부짖고 있었습니다. 2005년에, 정신과 의사의 도움으로 점차적으로 약을 끊을 수 있었습니다. 약을 한 알 (30mg) 로 줄였을 때, 금단 증상이 나타났는데, 발한, 통증, 불안, 떨림, 메스꺼움 그리고 폐소공포증과 같은 증상들로 고통을 겪었습니다. 결국 저는 약물치료를 계속하기로 결정했습니다. 수면제와 금단 현상을 억제하는 바리움을 처방해 주었는데, 아반자 용량을 60밀리그램으로 올리자, 모든 금단 현상들이 멈췄습니다. 이로써 제가 약에 상당량을 의존하고 있었음을 깨닫게 되었고, 저는 큰 실망감을 느꼈습니다. 남은 인생동안 계속 의사들과 이런 치료법에 의존해서 살아가야 할 거 같은 느낌이 들었습니다. 우울증은 아직도 아주 심했고 저는 여전히 많이 울었으며, 온몸에 통증이 있었기에, 저는 그저 이런 제 삶을 끝내고 싶었습니다. 그래서 저는 2007년 1월에 자살할 계획을 세웠습니다.
Healing from severe depression and anxiety disorder
E. B. (50), Ergoldsbach (Germany)
In the year 1995, an ominous situation developed at my workplace - mobile nursing care - mobbing was becoming widespread. This caused me to develop permanent anxiety, and I could hardly do my job any more. In 1997, my frame of mind was so shattered that, for example, I was neither able to fill a syringe nor administer intramuscular Injections. At home I could no longer calm down, and I was plagued by thoughts of suicide. A neurologist had me admitted to the district hospital because of acute self-endangerment. At first I was completely sedated, so that I hardly perceived anything. After eight weeks without significant improvement I was released at my own risk on the condition that I undergo psychiatric treatment. On the one hand the prescribed medication did help me to somehow be active, but on the other hand everything was insensitive and mechanical. In the end it helped just as little as conversational therapy.
Healing from alcohol addiction and depression
J. L. (54), Buffalo (USA)
Shortly after my 18th birthday (1968) I began to drink beer and schnapps. I would drink 12 to 18 beers a day from Monday to Sunday. It was normal for me at the time to come home from work, change clothes, go to my favourite hangout and stay there until three o’clock in the morning. Then I would get up at seven o’clock and go to work, always with a terrible hangover. I was working in the construction industry at the time. This happened day after day. Thus it became the pattern of my life. Today I can’t understand how I was able to survive for 35 years with such excessive alcohol consumption.
Healing of depression
Mrs N. D. (49), Frankfurt (Germany)
I was often nervous, reacted irritably at the slightest thing and felt oppressed to the point of suffocation. A Russian healer gave me some relief through a laying on of hands, but it only lasted a short while.
My introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning released a real revolution within me. I hardly slept and my whole body was in turmoil. After about three weeks, it was as if all my emotional problems had been blown away. I feel free, happy and like a person of value with faith in the future.
Healing of depression
Mrs M. L. (42), Bebra (Germany)
Before I found my way to the Bruno Gröning Circle of Friends, I had suffered from depression for over six years with bouts of anxiety, and had no interest in everyday events. Even getting up in the morning was a torment. I was afraid of every situation I encountered. I was often unable to think clearly, sat without any interest in what was going on around me and the lightest housework was beyond me. I took various medicines in differing strengths, first Baldrian, then Demetrin, Tofranil and Saroten tablets.
Five days after my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning and absorbing the healing stream, all my problems were simply gone. Since then I have not had an attack of anxiety. I get up easily in the morning and I take an interest in all my daily activities. I no longer need medication and am free from depression.
Healing of depression
Mrs E. G. (64), Heidelberg (Germany)
In 1985, at the age of 59, I was laid off work. This came as such a shock that I fell into a deep depression. I could no longer sleep at night, neglected my flat, was unsociable and apathetic and lacked the courage to go out shopping. I began to cry whenever somebody spoke to me. For over four years, I received injections of Vitamin B12 and Imap (neuroleptic drug with depot effect) with no result. At the time of my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning, in November 1989, I was at an all-time low.
Immediately after my introduction, I pulled myself together and since then my flat has always been in order. After three weeks I felt as if the years of depression had never been. Since then, I have been free from depression, and every form of apathy or withdrawal has simply disappeared. I have also been able to discontinue my medication.
Healing of depression
Mr R. B. (25), Linz (Austria)
For three years I suffered from depression which manifested as
follows: difficulty in breathing, suicidal tendencies, loneliness, fear of people, no interest in anything, joylessness, nightmares and vomiting. I was almost continually in bed. Before examinations I lost all self-confidence and often cancelled at the last moment. Psychotherapeutic treatment brought only temporary improvement.
Soon after my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning, in March 1995, I suddenly felt a surge of power and an emotional freedom so that for the first time in a long while, I simply laughed because I felt wonderful. I have an unexpected zest for life, no longer feel tired and am truly healthy.
