Healings of depression
Şiddetli depresyon ve Travma Sonrası Stres Bozukluğundan İyileşme
R.Z. (43), Melbourne (Avustralya)
Bir çocuk olarak zaten depresiftim. Babam bana karşı çoğunlukla şiddet gösteriyordu. Her zaman çok sessiz ve tedirgindim, uykularım çok kalitesizdi. Dokuz yaşındayken tacize uğradım. Ailem biliyordu, ama durdurmak için hiçbir şey yapmadılar. Onaltı yaşımdayken – başarısız bir şekilde – aşırı doz tabletlerle intihara teşebüs ettim. Okulda tüm derslerde başarısız oldum. Bu kendimden daha fazla nefret etmeme neden oldu ve hiçbir işe yaramadığımı düşündüm. Onsekiz yaşındayken evden ayrıldım. Yirmi iki yaşından itibaren dört yıldan fazla bir süreyi psikiyatrik tedavide geçirdim. Yan etkileri yüzünden hiç ilaç almadım. Evliliğim üç senenin ardından yıkıldı ve beni tedavi eden psikiyatrist benim için daha yapacak bir şeyi kalmadığını söyledi. Bir sürü psikoloğa, psikiyatriste, hekime, hastahaneye, ruhsal şifacıya ve şifa uygulayıcısına gittim. Her çocukluk anısına fiziksel bir çöküş eşlik ediyordu. Saklanırdım ve kalp krizi geçiriyormuş gibi şiddetli panik ataklar geçirirdim. Sonra saatlerce bilincimi kaybederdim. Yıllarca kapıyı kitleyip uyuyana kadar ağladım. Depresyon, kaygı ve panik ataklar çok şiddetli bir hale geldi ve 2003 yılında psikiyatri kliniğine kabul edildim. Testler sonrası ilaç verildi (Cipramil, sonrasında Avanza = Mirtazepam) ve bu yardımcı oldu. Her şeyin tekrar yoluna girdiğini düşündüm ama hala ruhumda çığlık çığlığa ağlayan birşey vardı. 2005 yılında, psikiyatristin yardımı ile, ilaca devam etmeyi kestim. Dozu bir tablete düşürdüğümde (30mg) yoksunluk sendromlar başladı. Terleme, acı, kaygı, titreme, bulantı ve klostrofobi krizleri geçirdim. İlaca devam etmeye karar verdim. Uyku hapları için reçete aldım ve yoksunluk sendromu için Valium verildi, ama sonra dozu 60mg Avanza’ya çıkardım ve tekrar tüm yoksunluk belirtileri sona erdi. Bu benim için büyük bir hayal kırıklığıydı çünkü o zaman bu ilaca bağımlı olduğumu gördüm. Hayatımın geri kalanını doktorlarla ve terapilerle geçireceğim hissine kapıldım. Depresyon o kadar şiddetliydi ki hep ağlamaya devam ettim, her yerimde acı vardı ve hayatımı sonlandırmak istedim. 1 Temmuz 2017’de intihar planlandı.
Healing from severe depression and anxiety disorder
E. B. (50), Ergoldsbach (Germany)
In the year 1995, an ominous situation developed at my workplace - mobile nursing care - mobbing was becoming widespread. This caused me to develop permanent anxiety, and I could hardly do my job any more. In 1997, my frame of mind was so shattered that, for example, I was neither able to fill a syringe nor administer intramuscular Injections. At home I could no longer calm down, and I was plagued by thoughts of suicide. A neurologist had me admitted to the district hospital because of acute self-endangerment. At first I was completely sedated, so that I hardly perceived anything. After eight weeks without significant improvement I was released at my own risk on the condition that I undergo psychiatric treatment. On the one hand the prescribed medication did help me to somehow be active, but on the other hand everything was insensitive and mechanical. In the end it helped just as little as conversational therapy.
Healing from alcohol addiction and depression
J. L. (54), Buffalo (USA)
Shortly after my 18th birthday (1968) I began to drink beer and schnapps. I would drink 12 to 18 beers a day from Monday to Sunday. It was normal for me at the time to come home from work, change clothes, go to my favourite hangout and stay there until three o’clock in the morning. Then I would get up at seven o’clock and go to work, always with a terrible hangover. I was working in the construction industry at the time. This happened day after day. Thus it became the pattern of my life. Today I can’t understand how I was able to survive for 35 years with such excessive alcohol consumption.
Healing of depression
Mrs N. D. (49), Frankfurt (Germany)
I was often nervous, reacted irritably at the slightest thing and felt oppressed to the point of suffocation. A Russian healer gave me some relief through a laying on of hands, but it only lasted a short while.
My introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning released a real revolution within me. I hardly slept and my whole body was in turmoil. After about three weeks, it was as if all my emotional problems had been blown away. I feel free, happy and like a person of value with faith in the future.
Healing of depression
Mrs M. L. (42), Bebra (Germany)
Before I found my way to the Bruno Gröning Circle of Friends, I had suffered from depression for over six years with bouts of anxiety, and had no interest in everyday events. Even getting up in the morning was a torment. I was afraid of every situation I encountered. I was often unable to think clearly, sat without any interest in what was going on around me and the lightest housework was beyond me. I took various medicines in differing strengths, first Baldrian, then Demetrin, Tofranil and Saroten tablets.
Five days after my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning and absorbing the healing stream, all my problems were simply gone. Since then I have not had an attack of anxiety. I get up easily in the morning and I take an interest in all my daily activities. I no longer need medication and am free from depression.
Healing of depression
Mrs E. G. (64), Heidelberg (Germany)
In 1985, at the age of 59, I was laid off work. This came as such a shock that I fell into a deep depression. I could no longer sleep at night, neglected my flat, was unsociable and apathetic and lacked the courage to go out shopping. I began to cry whenever somebody spoke to me. For over four years, I received injections of Vitamin B12 and Imap (neuroleptic drug with depot effect) with no result. At the time of my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning, in November 1989, I was at an all-time low.
Immediately after my introduction, I pulled myself together and since then my flat has always been in order. After three weeks I felt as if the years of depression had never been. Since then, I have been free from depression, and every form of apathy or withdrawal has simply disappeared. I have also been able to discontinue my medication.
Healing of depression
Mr R. B. (25), Linz (Austria)
For three years I suffered from depression which manifested as
follows: difficulty in breathing, suicidal tendencies, loneliness, fear of people, no interest in anything, joylessness, nightmares and vomiting. I was almost continually in bed. Before examinations I lost all self-confidence and often cancelled at the last moment. Psychotherapeutic treatment brought only temporary improvement.
Soon after my introduction to the teachings of Bruno Gröning, in March 1995, I suddenly felt a surge of power and an emotional freedom so that for the first time in a long while, I simply laughed because I felt wonderful. I have an unexpected zest for life, no longer feel tired and am truly healthy.
