Исцеления от Пограничное расстройство личности
Healing from borderline personality disorder
A. R. (47), Wetzikon (Switzerland)
From my childhood on I suffered from extreme terror, often accompanied by fits of screaming. At the age of 22 I took a trip to Asia, during which a fear of flying and death anxiety arose. The terror panic attacks of my childhood returned as well.
When I was 15 I began to suffer from severe depression. Sometimes I had to stay in bed in a darkened room for days. When I was 38 years old I was diagnosed with breast cancer. The lumps were surgically removed, followed by radiotherapy daily for three months. I coped with this quite well physically, but during this time my depression worsened. Nine months of therapy with a psychologist was unsuccessful. And three years spent in a psychiatric clinic where I was medicated with various medications such as lithium, anti-psychotics (Prazine, Nozinan) benzodiazepine and antidepressants (Fluktrine, Seropram, Tolvon) also brought no success.
Healing from borderline personality syndrome with severe medication dependence
U. K. (47), Waidhofen an der Thaya (Austria)
1. Borderline personality syndrome
I grew up as an overprotected only child trained for success and accomplishment. I had hardly any contact with other children. Except for when I went to school, I almost always only left the house when accompanied by my parents. They kept a strict eye on me. The first thoughts of suicide came when I was 13 or 14. I intended to take an overdose of medication if I ever got a bad grade at school.
Probably out of protest to this pressure to perform, I was very lazy at school and was consequently also very afraid of examinations. At 16 or 17 I would sometimes take tranquillizers to be calmer when doing homework. There were in packets in a cupboard in our living room because my mother worked in a pharmacy. I took 20 tranquillizers at once for the first time when I was 17 because I wasn’t allowed to go out at least once like other teenagers.
