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長年に渡る薬物中毒の治癒
A. M. (42), ヴェルス（オーストリア）
「あなたも一服したくありませんか？」という誘いは、私のその後のすべての人生に悲惨な結果をもたらしました。友人（後の夫）と私が、知人からマリファナたばこ（大麻タバコ）をやろうと誘われた時、私は17歳になったばかりで全く自分に自信がありませんでした。いわゆる「友人」からのこの種の招待はその後も続き、私たちは喜んで受け入れました。罠は仕掛けられ、私たちは前後にあるこのような多くの罠にはまっていきました。ちょうどしばらくして、私たちは大麻を自分自身で買い始め、最初は週末だけ使いました。
Healing from drug addiction
I. H. (38), Trier (Germany)
After the death of my companion in 1991, I began to smoke more and more hashish. After a while I was smoking up to eight grams a day. From 1992 on, I occasionally also took speed and LSD. I began to consume heroin and cocaine early in 1993, shooting heroine regularly. It increased to about one gram of heroin a day. Since I didn't have anywhere near enough money I sold my body at a private address.
Healing from drug and alcohol addiction, as well as depression
A. K. (42), Kassel (Germany)
In the year 1986, at 27 years of age, I began to smoke hashish. Two years later LSD was added. After my divorce I was with another woman for two years. When that also came to nothing I became very depressed. I was listless, irritable, always tired and often felt dejected. Before I had completely come to terms with the first separation the pain of the second one came along. During this period I got to know some people who dealt in hard drugs (heroin, cocaine). After awhile I, too, sniffed a noseful of cocaine.
メタドン中毒からの治癒
ドイツ フランクフルト S.K.(38)
私は両親の離婚をきっかけに、精神的に大変落ち込み、肥満気味で、17歳からハシシを吸い始めました。2年後には、ヘロインとコカインだけでなくLSDとサイロシビンを時々使用しました。ドラッグ依存の相手と別れた後、うまく職業訓練を経て、再び働くことができました。28歳の時に彼と再び付き合うこととなり、ヘロインとコカイン依存が重症化しました。私はメタドン療法を受け、この薬を5ml処方されました。その間に、1日の薬の使用量は15mlまで徐々に増えました。その後私は違法にこの薬を入手し、毎日30mlを使用しました。薬が手に入らなかった時は、その翌日に40mlを使用していました。
薬物およびアルコール中毒（多重中毒）からの治癒
I. M.（47），ユルツェン（ドイツ）
私が8歳の時、父が亡くなりました。母は私を非常に過保護に育て、私が大きくなるにつれ、対立を生むようになりました。このことがうつ病と不安症を引き起こさせ、主治医は抗不安薬のトランキシリウムを私に与えました。13歳の時、初めて薬物との関わりを持ちました。放課後、バスを待つ間、マリファナたばこを手に入れる機会が常にあり、仲間でお金を集め、それぞれが何本かを入手しました。こうしてAN1のような覚せい剤にも精通するようになりましたが、母は何も知りませんでした。母との大喧嘩の末、トランキシリウムを丸々1箱、手に入れました。自分の人生に終止符を打ちたかったのですが、翌朝も目覚めて、学校へも行きました。
Healing from heroin addiction
V. L. (34), Cologne (Germany)
When I was 17 I started to smoke hash. Now and again I also injected heroin. At 19 I was addicted to heroin. I had to inject heroin once a day. I led a real double life. The world of drugs on one side and the family on the other.
Healing from opium addiction
T. A. (29), Tiraspol (Moldavia)
I started to smoke pot in the army in 1992. In 1994, opium was added to that which I injected, as well. That's the drug I stuck to when I left the army and I spent a lot of money on it. I was like a marionette and couldn't keep away from the opium, also because the people in my environment didn't help me with my escape attempts but rather offered me drugs again and again. That way I took opium almost daily for over four years, depending on how much money I had.
Healing from cocaine addiction and the abuse of speed
G. Q. (34), Cologne (Germany)
At 17 years of age (1987), I met a boy who was a few years older than me. I had an entirely new circle of friends and as time went on became more and more rebellious and impolite to my mother. When I turned 18 I moved in with my friend. At the time I didn’t know that he took drugs and also sold them. I noticed that strange people who I didn’t know were continually going in and out and that he would always go into another room. When I would later go into that room it would smell very funny. I inquired with my friend and learned that he smoked hashish in a water-pipe and also sold it. I didn’t believe him but didn’t dare to speak to him about it again. A short time later when cleaning I found various little packets with white powder and little plastic bags with dark brown lumps in them. I confronted him and he confirmed to me that he sold drugs (hashish, Speed, cocaine, etc.) and also consumed them himself. My heart almost stood still but since I liked him so much I stayed with him.
Healing from drug addiction, anxiety, hallucinations and delusions as well as aggression
E.d.G. (36), Amsterdam (Netherlands)
I was born in Surinam (the Netherlands Antilles). I was a difficult child. Sometimes I was confused and didn’t want to hear anything from anyone. I was afraid of the dark and of crossing the street. Sometimes I was aggressive and destroyed things. I also sometimes drank alcohol from little bottles and was once drunk for two days while still a child. My mother sometimes struck me. She probably didn’t know what do do with me.
In school I didn’t have much contact with other children. This had begun as early as kindergarten; I wanted to play too, but was always excluded. One time, my little brother showed me some money at school but I grabbed it out of his hand and invited everyone to have a doughnut. I liked to play the "big man" a lot. So I began to steal money more often and distribute presents.
Healing from drug dependence
E. H. (44), Forbach (France)
As a youth I was often alone and unhappy. At 16 I became the drummer in a rock band. For ten years we traveled all over France. With the music also came drugs, first cannabis, hashish and LSD. At 19 it was finally heroin, cocaine and amphetamines. Every day I would already be high on drugs early in the morning. Then there was also alcohol. It went so far that I had to give up my music. I simply wasn't up to it any more.
