ハードドラッグ
メタドン中毒からの治癒
ドイツ フランクフルト S.K.(38)
私は両親の離婚をきっかけに、精神的に大変落ち込み、肥満気味で、17歳からハシシを吸い始めました。2年後には、ヘロインとコカインだけでなくLSDとサイロシビンを時々使用しました。ドラッグ依存の相手と別れた後、うまく職業訓練を経て、再び働くことができました。28歳の時に彼と再び付き合うこととなり、ヘロインとコカイン依存が重症化しました。私はメタドン療法を受け、この薬を5ml処方されました。その間に、1日の薬の使用量は15mlまで徐々に増えました。その後私は違法にこの薬を入手し、毎日30mlを使用しました。薬が手に入らなかった時は、その翌日に40mlを使用していました。
薬物およびアルコール中毒（多重中毒）からの治癒
I. M.（47），ユルツェン（ドイツ）
私が8歳の時、父が亡くなりました。母は私を非常に過保護に育て、私が大きくなるにつれ、対立を生むようになりました。このことがうつ病と不安症を引き起こさせ、主治医は抗不安薬のトランキシリウムを私に与えました。13歳の時、初めて薬物との関わりを持ちました。放課後、バスを待つ間、マリファナたばこを手に入れる機会が常にあり、仲間でお金を集め、それぞれが何本かを入手しました。こうしてAN1のような覚せい剤にも精通するようになりましたが、母は何も知りませんでした。母との大喧嘩の末、トランキシリウムを丸々1箱、手に入れました。自分の人生に終止符を打ちたかったのですが、翌朝も目覚めて、学校へも行きました。
Healing from heroin addiction
V. L. (34), Cologne (Germany)
When I was 17 I started to smoke hash. Now and again I also injected heroin. At 19 I was addicted to heroin. I had to inject heroin once a day. I led a real double life. The world of drugs on one side and the family on the other.
Healing from opium addiction
T. A. (29), Tiraspol (Moldavia)
I started to smoke pot in the army in 1992. In 1994, opium was added to that which I injected, as well. That's the drug I stuck to when I left the army and I spent a lot of money on it. I was like a marionette and couldn't keep away from the opium, also because the people in my environment didn't help me with my escape attempts but rather offered me drugs again and again. That way I took opium almost daily for over four years, depending on how much money I had.
Healing from cocaine addiction and the abuse of speed
G. Q. (34), Cologne (Germany)
At 17 years of age (1987), I met a boy who was a few years older than me. I had an entirely new circle of friends and as time went on became more and more rebellious and impolite to my mother. When I turned 18 I moved in with my friend. At the time I didn’t know that he took drugs and also sold them. I noticed that strange people who I didn’t know were continually going in and out and that he would always go into another room. When I would later go into that room it would smell very funny. I inquired with my friend and learned that he smoked hashish in a water-pipe and also sold it. I didn’t believe him but didn’t dare to speak to him about it again. A short time later when cleaning I found various little packets with white powder and little plastic bags with dark brown lumps in them. I confronted him and he confirmed to me that he sold drugs (hashish, Speed, cocaine, etc.) and also consumed them himself. My heart almost stood still but since I liked him so much I stayed with him.
Healing from drug addiction, anxiety, hallucinations and delusions as well as aggression
E.d.G. (36), Amsterdam (Netherlands)
I was born in Surinam (the Netherlands Antilles). I was a difficult child. Sometimes I was confused and didn’t want to hear anything from anyone. I was afraid of the dark and of crossing the street. Sometimes I was aggressive and destroyed things. I also sometimes drank alcohol from little bottles and was once drunk for two days while still a child. My mother sometimes struck me. She probably didn’t know what do do with me.
In school I didn’t have much contact with other children. This had begun as early as kindergarten; I wanted to play too, but was always excluded. One time, my little brother showed me some money at school but I grabbed it out of his hand and invited everyone to have a doughnut. I liked to play the "big man" a lot. So I began to steal money more often and distribute presents.
Healing from drug dependence
E. H. (44), Forbach (France)
As a youth I was often alone and unhappy. At 16 I became the drummer in a rock band. For ten years we traveled all over France. With the music also came drugs, first cannabis, hashish and LSD. At 19 it was finally heroin, cocaine and amphetamines. Every day I would already be high on drugs early in the morning. Then there was also alcohol. It went so far that I had to give up my music. I simply wasn't up to it any more.
